Oblations
by M. Faye
David didn't want to save the world; he didn't have any massive hopes of
single-handedly destroying the 'Counsel,' or saving the innumerable
humans suffering at their hands. He wanted to be with Leaf. It had been
the only thought that had ever kept him going through the trials of
joining Daybreak's ranks. It was the only thought that dominated him
while he watched the Daybreak operatives that night, hardly listening
beyond his meandering through his own mental fog. He never wanted any of
it...he only wanted to be with Leaf.
The sky was coming on black when David and Leaf departed the compound,
lacy trails of orange, yellow and fire-red clouds clinging to the crests
of the mountain range, the dusk sun a splotch of blood against the pyre.
The sun lit Leaf's pale face, making him look heroic and beautiful,
determined to win the battles that Daybreak had convinced him were in
the works. A religious zealot, like a young priest, lit with the light
of his god, willing to die for that god. David wanted for a moment to
reach out and grab his shoulder, shake his fragile form and scream into
his benevolent face the truth of man. Heroes die for causes; fools kill
themselves for them.
Leaf wouldn't listen if he did, though. Leaf was his own, entranced by
the mission he imagined for himself. It was stamped in his lucid step,
his violet eyes beneath his thick black lashes, the hard line of his
full lips and the serene determination in his smooth, cool flesh. They'd
drawn him into the battles in his mind beneath the mop of silky brass-
colored hair.
"We're going to right wrongs, David." Leaf spoke softly, his steps
slowing to a halt as he stared out over the mountains. The breeze
stirred his hair, sending threads of gold softly whispering over his
high cheekbones, staring at the sun going down. David shook his head,
his eyes dark and his expression furious. "That's what they said during
the crusades." He retorted, the polar opposite of Leaf as much as a
photographic negative was. Pale in a startling fashion, his soot-black
hair cropped short and spiky, his eyebrows straight and sarcastic, his
lush black lashed eyelids always low on his golden eyes. Leaf looked
strikingly natural, as pure and beautiful as summer rain where David was
disquietingly beautiful as lonely winter nights. Their differences ran
deep as bone.
"Time has worn on you, David, and too many life times have made you
cynical." Leaf spoke, his eyes sliding from the sunset to David.
"I could say the same of you. You're too inexperienced to gauge reality for
what it is. You think that because you're fighting for a noble cause
that conquest is inevitable."
Leaf clenched his teeth, his eyes falling
shut. "Another lecture, David? Sometimes I wonder if you're more
interested in being my father figure than-"
David's eyes blazed with
black fire. "Don't be a fool, Leaf!" He snapped. "You always turn
everything into a personal attack on you! You're the one who dragged me
up to this stupid compound." Leaf's eyes were bright and hurt, his gaze
fully on David.
"I wanted you to understand, David. You never want to
understand anything beyond what you've already learned. Don't you ever
want to learn something new?" He replied, his eyes fierce and full of
accusation.
"How can you say that when you never try to understand me,
Leaf? I give everything just to make you happy. I rip my heart out,
tear my soul apart and rearrange the night sky just for you. And you
can't try to understand the words I don't say when I'm speaking to you."
David cried, his eyes torn and splintered into a thousand shards of
emotion.
Leaf stepped closer, a foot from the boy. "How can you say that
when you refuse to accept my perception of what is wrong -- you don't
have to agree, David...if you would just look and accept my opinions as
valid, if not right. You can't love someone if you don't respect them,
David."
David's hand flew out of the increasing dark, his fingers soft on the
back of Leaf's neck as he pulled Leaf against him, his arm encircling
Leaf's waist. He held him so tight, Leaf's hands immediately on David's
back, holding him. The world was slow and lucid outside of them, Leaf's
face nestled in David's shoulder, his hair soft against David's closed
eyelids and lips and David, clutching Leaf hard, trying to undo the
damage of the world inflicted upon them. David's soft words were spoken
into Leaf's hair, barely audible. "Don't ever say that." He breathed.
"Don't ever say that again. I love you." He repeated the words, his
heart aching emptily in his chest.
Somewhere in his mind and soul, he felt the world and fate trying to
tear them apart. He swore to himself that he wasn't going to let that
happen. He would fight the armies of the world, if just to remain with
Leaf. He only wanted to be with Leaf...
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